God! Where is life going? Now that is a difficult question. I guess many people ask this question many times a day; in many languages. But what am i doing? Am i old enough to face the mid life crisis? Does 25 years sound so old? Yes, i am going to be 25 this month. I don't regret that.
But I think I shouldn't have lived in these times. Probably i should have lived one generation back. Then i would have lived a better life! I envy my parents to have lived such a wonderful life. I envy their childhood which just had simple toys to play with; in which they played with their neighborhood friends. I envy their youth when love had been something more than what we see in movies and books. I envy their married life in which they had been together; they had time for their family and their loved ones!
I am not saying that i hate my life or something like that. I am thankful to god for my life; for being alive. But i don't think the time I am living is right. I don't regret my childhood also. But then from there on, i feel that it had been a race. I feel that I had been running. And these precious years in my life had passed away very soon. I couldn't stop, enjoy and treasure it. Now I regret that. I don't even remember how my teenage flew away. Or did i live through it! I don't know. That was quite fast. I feel that i should stop and enjoy life. But how? Haven't you heard "Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here we should dance". But i feel that life is not the party! But it has turned out be a race where everyone is running to achieve something. And i feel that even I feel that i had run; but i was not quite fast! I feel that I am an underachiever. Now that is a real loss! I did run and did not enjoy my life and even though i ran, i didn't achieve anything!
Why am I so depressing? Should I really call for help! What has happen to me? Now please, anyone who is reading this, please don't get demotivated. Life isn't really bad. Just smile and everything is going to be alright!

Blogging

Phew! Blogging is not that easy... you need the time and mood to put down what is running in your mind.... and i bow to all those who regularly blog! you are amazing.... When i started blogging itself i knew... i m not going to do this for long :) .... OK... i heard u murmur "what a good thought for a good beginning" ... but since i know myself well enough to know that i jump from one thing to another, the idea was perceived...
And why did i start again after more than a month of retreat? Don't know! well i just lied... i know... i was thinking of blogging again... but then never could i pep up my mind to open this site. And then today i just read my friends blog which came from a "crystal heart :P " . His first and the only blog post was about the "Beginner's Mind". "Beginner's mind is a concept in Zen Buddhism. As the name suggests, it refers to having an attitude of openness, eagerness, and lack of preconceptions when studying a subject." On seeing this one and only post, i decided i had to write something in my blog too... thats how i logged in and wrote this much. Now i have to stop and go back to my work!

Kiran's Bde!

Morning I woke with lots of excitement! Don’t you feel like asking y? We are going to ‘The Oterra’ for lunch! This team lunch is sponsored by 3 of our PMs… tang tang ta tang! (Reminds me of the advertisements in Doordarshan during good old childhood days). So I told all my friends that I am going to ‘The Oterra’. But from when on did I feel like calling the hotel with a “THE” which I see everyday during my walk bus Infy bus bay to the Salarpuria Infozon? Probably from the time I came to know that it’s a ***** hotel! Usually I don’t give much of the look at the hotel while the walk. But today I was pretty interested and was looking “only” at the hotel while I was passing it- thinking of all the fun and fotos ( by d by, did I tell u that I brought my cam today)we are going to have inside it today.

Reached office and was very eager to wish my PM his Birthday (after all poor chap-he is taking us to The Oterra-just kidding ;))! And alas, there he says “We are not going to The Oterra since we dint get a booking”. Now what? They end up having discussions and round table conferences to decide upon what to do! And we end up in Manipal County. So we all went to manipal county and it was very great! Half of the blog was written before I went for treat and half after it. So during the second half of the blog, I am feeling very sleepy after a heavy lunch and loads of desserts! The place was really good… and the food was good… so we enjoyed, had a good time and am dozing offffffffffffffff…………………. !

Yippee! Today is Friday… when I thought about it, I am kind of waking from my sleep…. But oh no please I cant still manage to write something interesting here.. so I will better put some pics to make it interesting!

Now what you see below is our journey to Manipal County! Thats inside of the Red Volvo Bus of BMTC in which we travelled!


Now this is the pic while we had our lunch in Manipal County... Its not actually duirng the lunch... because we were too busy eating rather than taking pix.. so this pic was taken when we finished our main course and were taking a break so that we can stuff in more desserts!


Now there comes the desserts! They were yummy... now dont wonder who took these many sweets... its my plate only... there were payasam, cake and something else remaining... since i couldnt put them also in this, i dint take them! ;)




Now yea.. lunch is over.. now its the cake cutting ceremony... Happy Bde to u ... happy bde to u... happy bde dear kiran.. happy bde to u.... we made him to pose for a long time... poor fellow dint know that we were more interested in taking the pic of the cake rather than his!


























Okie... Now lunch and cake cutting over... its group pic time!

Now guys will have lots of questions about this pic but i am not ready to give any explanation!




Now the whole team!




Phew! that was a big job after the sumptuous meal!

"Why am I unhappy?" Never ask this Q

I came upon something else also while reading "The Zahir". Just read through the following paragraph:

No one should ever ask themselves that: why am I unhappy? the question carries within it the virus that will destroy everything. If we ask that question, it means we want to find out what makes us happy. If what makes us happy is different from what we have now, then we must either change once and for all or stay as we are, feeling even more unhappy.
I should accept what life is offering me.

Dont you think "The Zahir" is really worth reading?

The Railway Track and The Marriage

This is something i read yesterday. From the book "The Zahir" by Paulo Coelho. Lots of things in that makes sense! This is something which lead me to think when i read it.


"I went to a main railway station today and learned that the distance between railway tracks is always 143.5 cm or 5 feet and 8.5 inches. Why is this absurd measurement? I asked my girlfriend to find about it and this is what she discovered. When they built the first train carriages, they used the same tools as they had for building horse-drawn carriages. And why that distance between the wheels on carriages? Because that was the width of the old roads along which the carriages had to travel. And who decided that roads should be that width? Well, suddenly, we are plunged back into the distant past. It was the Romans, the first great road-builders, who decided to make their roads that width. And why? Because their war chariots were pulled by two horses, when placed side by side, the horses they used at the time took up 143.5 cm.

So the distance between the tracks I saw today, used by our state-of-the-art high-speed trains, was determined by the Romans. When people went to United States and started building railways there, it dint occur to them to change the width and so it stayed as it was. This even affected the building of the space shuttles. American engineers thought the fuel rank should be wider, but the tanks were built in Utah and had to be transported by train to the Space Center in Florida, and the tunnels couldn’t take anything wider. And so they had to accept the measurement that Romans had decided was the ideal. But what has all this to do with marriage?

It has everything to do with marriage. At some point in history, someone turned up and said: when two people get married, they must stay frozen like that for the rest of their lives. You will move along side by side like two tracks, keeping always that same distance apart. Even if sometimes one of needs to be a little further away or little closer, that is against the rules. The rules say: be sensible, think of the future, think of your children. You can’t change; you must be like two railway tracks that remain the same distance apart all the way from their point of departure to their destination. The rules don’t allow for love to change, or grow at the start and diminish halfway through-its too dangerous. And so, after the enthusiasm of the first few years, they maintain the same distance, the same solidity, the same functional nature. Your purpose is to allow the train bearing the survival of the species to head off into the future: your children will only be happy if you stay jus t as you were – 143.5 cm apart. If you’re not happy with something that never changes, think of them, think f the children you brought into the world.

Think of the neighbors. Show them that you’re happy, eat roast beef on Sundays, watch television, help community. This of society: dress in such a way that everyone knows you’re in perfect harmony. Never glance to the side, someone might be watching you, and that could bring temptation, it could mean divorce, crisis, depression.

Smile in all photos. Put the photos in the living room, so that everyone can see them. Cut the grass, practice a sport- oh yes, you must practice a sport in order to stay frozen in time. When sport isn’t enough, have plastic surgery. But never forget, these rules were established long ago and must be respected. Who established these rules? That doesn’t matter. Don’t question them, because they will always apply, even if you don’t agree with them."

I dont know if this is to be followed or this is to be violated. But how true are these words about marriage. But i think there should be something more to it than the usual monotony for a relationship to be happy and rewarding. I believe that love can last a lifetime!

'Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character' - Albert Einstein

I just got a forward mail from one of my team mates with a subject line "Read This - Good Message If You Are Bored !!!" .... I wasn't actually bored... i was having time of my life reading CnH and eating chocolates... but then i felt like reading it.... when i read through the first line itself, i came to know that i had l already got this mail before. But then also i read through the mail... it as follows...:

The Japanese have always loved fresh fish. But the water close to Japan has not held many fish for decades. So to feed the Japanese population, fishing boats got bigger and went further than ever. The further the fishermen went, the longer it took to bring the fish. If the return trip took more time, the fish were not fresh. To solve this problem, fish companies installed freezers on their boats. They would catch the fish and freeze them at sea. Freezers allowed the boats to go further and stay longer. However, the Japanese could taste the difference between fresh and frozen fish. And they did not like the taste of frozen fish. The frozen fish brought a lower price. So, fishing companies installed fish tanks. They would catch the fish and stuff them in the tanks, fin to fin. After a little thrashing around, they were tired, dull, and lost their fresh-fish taste. The fishing industry faced an impending crisis! But today, they get fresh-tasting fish to Japan .

How did they manage? To keep the fish tasting fresh, the Japanese fishing companies still put the fish in the tanks but with a small shark. The fish are challenged and hence are constantly on the move. The challenge they face keeps them alive and fresh!

Have you realized that some of us are also living in a pond but most of the time tired and dull? Basically in our lives, sharks are new challenges to keep us active. If you are steadily conquering challenges, you are happy. Your challenges keep you energized. Don't create success and revel in it in a state of inertia. You have the resources, skills and abilities to make a difference. Put a shark in your tank and see how far you can really go!

Yea, these kind of mails are sometimes very motivating... if u are in a mood for them... But sometimes i feel that y do ppl have to send such mails? People who want challenges will definitely find them in their life... Life is always full of challenges..I am just not ready to take it up...Thats it... Today morning, i was chatting with one of my college mates. He joined a software company as a software engineer and because of his managerial skills which was way above the technical skills he had, he is not doing any development work now. He is more into administrative stuff. He was informing me that he is leaving his company is going for MBA in UK. He asked me if i am going for higher studies. Actually speaking i have sometimes thought about it long back when i was surrounded by nasty people. But now I am happy with my life. But if you start questioning my existence, i dont have answers to it. If you ask me what i am doing from morning to night? I just have the answer as that this is my routine. Does routine get boring? Why am i asking such questions to myself? Are these others' questions? Or are these questions mine which I fear to ask myself? Am I not really happy with my life? Isnt a + b = c? Goshhhhh..... In this world there are always answers to all the questions. Today, you might not be able to answer everything... but tomorrow, the question which couldnot be answered today, will be answered...

Phew!

Some transliteration thing got enabled and i could see all other languages to write my blog other than English! Do u think i never mind? I do definitely! but it was fun... typing in malayalam and hindi... so wen i feel like kidding, i can turn it on and play with languages :)

So a weekend over... and i am back to office... Monday morning(even afternoon) blues(and white/yellow/orange depending on the sun!)... Actually its 3:02 in the afternoon and i was in the office since 8:30 am.... but coming to my senses now... Now i am eagerly waiting for another weekend! and that will arrive in jus 4 more days! Is time flying? Yea, some people will tell that time had been flying since long... So i will have to modify my question. "Is time flying too fast?". I think so. I believe that something strange has happen. We have not implicitly experienced it. But something has happened which has made Earth's speed of revolution faster. Yea. We dint feel that. Some force has actually did something. All the clocks and whatever corresponding time measuring things are present on earth and elsewhere had been automatically modifed. Yea. Earth is revolving faster. Days and Nights are goin faster. This 24 hours we get now is not the 24hrs which someone living in past has got. I am not joking buddy? Dont you yourself realise? How much time we had when we were kids. Now we dont have time. 24 hours is not sufficient. Dont you realise the speed at which weekends come, go, come, go... Thuddd.... sorry... have i gone mad? If my friends hear this, they will tell that question has to be altered to " Have my madness increased?"

Okie.. so saturday sunday is called heaven days :D .... and the rest of the days are called "Road to heaven" days :P

These days my weekends are mostly spend my watching movies... reading books... and yea... some amount of time roaming around in the crowded roads of bangalore...

Last week and during the weekend the books i finished are "Eye of the needle" by Ken Follet and "Brida" by Paulo Coelho... Former is the story of a German spy during the world war period in England.. his code name being " Die Nadal" meaning "The Needle". He has a stiletto as pointed as the needle which he uses to Kill his victims. "Brida" is the story of a girl named the same whose interest is currently concentrated in learning Magic. The books says that men want to learn magic to acquire power and women to find their love. The story deals about "finding Soulmates". I am always partial to paulo coelho cause i love his books. This is also one of such beautiful books.

Now the movies I watched. :P ... It started on friday night itself with the opening show "P.S. I Love You". It is a cute movie. Gerry really loves Holly. Feels little sentimental and all. :P ...
Saturday i watched "The Illusionist". It is a marvellously directed movie. I can put that into my fav movie list. Ed Norton is good. Sunday morning movie was " The Holiday". It was fun with Cameron Diaz(the one who dont cry :P ) and Kare Winslet. Sunday evening movie was "Meet Joe Black". OMG! man... Brad Pitt is sooooooooooo awesome! No more comments... You will have questions on my character if i carry on :P ....

Okie... done for today people!

Wats This???

ഹ്മ്മം
മോണ്ടായ്‌ മോര്‍ണിംഗ് ബ്ലുഎസ് .... വാട്സ് ദിസ്‌? വൈ ഈസ്‌ ഇറ്റ്‌ കമിംഗ് ഇന്‍ മലയാളം?
ओह तो हिन्दी में भी ब्लॉग बंता हैं! क्या बात हैं। हेहे।
ओ माय गोद! इंग्लिश नहीं मिल रहा हैं। कहाँ जाऊं? सेत्तिंग्स कहाँ पे टीक करते हैं?

वोगे! में अब जाके इंग्लिश दूद्ती हूँ। पता नहीं कैसे टीक करते हैं.

Hello world!

No this is not the name of the first program i wrote... :)

Many will probably have a Deja Vu wen dey hear "Hello World"... It takes many ppl back to the Computer Lab where you wrote your first code... a beginning to the many lines of crap which trails behind us! yea software engineer by "profession"! But i like it.... yea.. i crib sometimes... but i love what i am doin! Touch wood... i love my life! I love myself :)

Hmmm... there is no continuity between what i am writing... even i might feel that "whats diz??" ... but let it be... who cares! ;) Well... have u wondered why people say "Touch Wood"? I googled (dats my one of my hobbies.. another being "askin Qs") ... yea... In older days Crosses were made of wood... so the touching wood is meant for touchin the cross .. hence to ward of Evil... :)




Okay... pehle din ke liye ithna funda kaafi hain.... chalo mujhe office se bhi nikalna hain... :)